Thank you @roni52 had a pleasant day today in Nice from morning through to evening packed in so many activities. People here probably thought I was crazy walking and talking to myself…I was actually talking to my husband hoping (wishing) he was by my side seeing things that I was seeing and feeling things that I was feeling. It seemed to work quite well as I was not feeling lonely while walking the streets of Nice, just checked my steps couldn’t believe it 29700 steps I walked today more than I ever walked before!
I am not sure about being brave…it’s more of a running away from being sad and alone in the house filled with beautiful and loving memories, which I didn’t think I could handle so I chose the lesser of the devil really. Fortunately, it turned out to be not bad as I had feared. I am now feeling less scared of travelling solo, so hopefully will be less apprehensive about going solo again on his birthday, which we used to go away. It is now my duty to uphold that tradition- I hope he is up there smiling and waiting to accompany me on his birthday trip in September 
I hope you had a peaceful day too, take care xxx
Thank you @Liro yes I had a good day thinking about him all day and talking to him all day too! Talking to him does help ease the pain and loneliness so I tend to do that every day and every where. Yes I do believe he is with me always, in my mind and my heart 
It means a lot that we all understand what each other are going through and thank you for your kind words.
Sending love and hugs back xx
Thank you @Elite yes I was walking along side me all day today and I’d like to believe he’s always by my side experiencing this most special day with me
I am feeling loved and comforted.
Hope your day has been good as can be, take care xx
Hi @Angel1309
I’m so glad for you that you had such a good day. I had our 12th Anniversay a week after the funeral and marked it by buying the locket he wanted me to have and having lunch with one of my Granddaughters (we were together 42years and eventually got round to it after 30!)
I think we are better to try and do things to mark these occasions, rather than sit at home crying.
I do quite enough of that.
Like you will have Rogers biryhday in September. I’m not sure yet what I will do, but I will make it special
Love and hugs 
Liz x x
Hi @Angel1309,
So pleased you have had a positive experience in Nice.
Honestly a really brave and wonderful thing .
Sending love xc
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Wow that was a lot of steps, I’m glad you had a good day yesterday. I am sure your husband was with you in spirit all the way. I have to say you are much braver than I will ever be I could never contemplate travelling by myself but hats off to you brave lady and I’m sure your husband would be so proud of you xx
You never know in the future you may find the courage to go travelling on your own.x
Hi @Liro
Thank you. Wow 42 years of being together that’s so great! The locket was just a lovely idea to have it around your neck at all time and spending time with family was so precious!
I couldn’t agree more as I found it to be true yesterday while walking the streets of Nice I thought… hmm…this although sad but uplifted feeling or sitting and crying at home alone and the answer clearly was…where should I go for the next anniversary? So I took a quick train trip to check out a town nearby called ‘Antibes’ and I was not disappointed so there I will be in September.
I hope you will have a special day in September wherever that may be.
Please take care
Sending love and big hugs 
Thank you @Elite, I think it’s more of an escapism from falling apart at home rather than brave, but now I am glad I took that decision as while there I was hopeful that I would be more confident to take another solo trip for the next anniversary which will be his birthday in September.
Love and hugs xx
I hope the 29700 steps have made me a fit woman at least for a few days!
I guess I had to do whatever to distract me from being home alone and crying so getting away was the answer. Thank you for your kind words, I was so apprehensive at first kept asking myself should I or shouldn’t I. Then after having read another post on this forum; someone was encouraging everyone to travel solo, coupling with my love of travelling, it took over my fear so there I was in Nice! Now I am looking forward to taking him (spiritually) with me on my next trip in September.
Sending love & hugs xx
Hi@Angel1309,
Keep on doing what you’re doing, as they say:+1:
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I totally agree - you never know!
Sorry apologies - I don’t know where the ‘+1’ came from. Xx
The +1 was her husband’s spirit with her in Nice and I’m sure he would’ve been xxx
Hi@Georgi,
Sure you are right about that. Xx
So very brave to go on you’re own. You should be so proud of yourself, taking those steps. You deserve the best and i’m sure your husband must be immensely proud as he is watching over you. I couldnt contemplate going alone on holiday . My anxieties would be on over load. Your such a great person! Big hugs and congrats xx
I’m the same as you could never imagine doing that alone but I admire her for doing it xx
No worries +1 sounds good somehow 
@N8658 & @Georgi
You never know one day you may decide to just get up and go - never say never! I was so scared at first too and it took a lot of should I or shouldn’t I before I finally got here.
Thank you ever so much for your kind words 
the thought of my angel smiling and watching over me from up there does help ease the sadness, pain and loneliness enormously.
Sending love & hugs 
xx