One of those mornings today got up and started feeling very weepy overwhelmed with emotions, love and miss my angel so much 
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There have been up days and down days, today feeling so down before I even know it! My love, I hope you’re at peace wherever you are - love you and miss you forever 
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Me and my steve loved going to Weymouth we did the walk to osmington it was a lovely walk
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We loved spending time in Dorset.
Love the coastline there.
Great photos It really does look hot.
You are right to be proud, I admire you doing that.
Love,
Rose xx
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So sorry you are feeling so down.
These fluctuations are painful and tiring in themselves.
Sometimes after managing to do something challenging or having a better or good time, I have found that a down time has followed.
Sending a very big hug.
Rose xx
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Those are lovely photos it looks beautiful. Well done to you x Up here in North East Scotland we have not had much of a summer so far and its quite cold some days( even had to put my heating on some times! Saying that it looks lovely today but for how long is always the question, could be pouring of rain & wind this afternoon.
I am meeting friends today for a catch up and yesterday had visits from family members, distracts me from dwelling on being without my soul mate, but coming home to an empty house brings you back to reality xx
I’m proud of myself and all of us on here for coping without our other halfs because I’m sure its the hardest thing any of has had to deal with, losing my parents was hard enough but this we are all dealing with is just off the chart, take care everyone and keep striving to do our best each day, to make our partners watching us proud xxx
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Thank you for your kind words. I hope you will have a peaceful and comforting time away with your family on the 1st anniversary.
I think we all should be proud of ourselves wherever we’ve chosen to go - it’s about taking one forward step! One more step that will give us more confidence! I feel less anxious about travelling solo now since I’ve been back and in fact, I’m already looking forward to the next one 
Your photos look so beautiful and you look great too!
Big hugs 
That’s so true, I notice that after having a better time and soon after the sadness starts to creep in - that’s always the case.
My counsellor said grief is not a condition but it’s an emotion that we need to learn to manage - I should try to do just that, not sure how just yet but will try my best & fingers crossed it will work:crossed_fingers:eventually 
A very big hug back to you xxx
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Family has given me so much grief throughout this sad and lonely journey 
almost unbearable this week - I’m falling apart
You can choose your friends but you can’t choose your family unfortunately
I’ve taken giant steps backwards and now trying so hard to pull myself together - keep calm and carry on be strong and try to focus on grieving peacefully put all the negativity out of my mind.
Best wishes x
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Sorry for what you are going through family can be so uncaring and mean
Hope things get better for you soon sending hugs
I am so sorry.
I truly understand.
My gp said exactly that about family and friends to me.
I think concentrating on your health and wellbeing is excellent.
Thinking of you.
Rose xx
Thank you. I’m at work and finding hard to focus as these negative feelings keep replaying on my mind over and over - how exhausting 
Big hugs x
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Thank you for your kind words.
I will certainly keep my focus firmly on my wellbeing 
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Oh dear thats so sad why do some members of family show no compassion in these circumstances, it is little wonder its brought your mood down but I hope you can get past this and get back to focussing on yourself.
Negative relatives we can do without at this time!
I hope you feel better soon, its sad as you were so positive after your break away, shame they had to spoil that, sending hugs xxxx
I feel for you and i can understand. Ive had nothing but trouble from my late husband’s sister’s who were executors of his estate. They didnt help with anything to do with the funeral and they came in my house pretending to care, when is all they were bothered about was sizing up my late husband’s assets for his son. Some people have no morals or respect. X
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I’ve tried to keep busy at work to sideline these negative thoughts and hope I will gradually feel better, thank you so much for your kind support
I find it rather odd they should be unhappy about me taking a break on our wedding anniversary, or treating myself to something nice sometimes. What’s on these people’s minds I wonder?
Sending love & hugs xxx
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So comforting to know that we are going through similar experiences and we understand each other. It’s so true “money is the root of all evil” that’s all they can see and care sadly!
Best wishes xx
Thats just shocking if they can’t say anything nice they should keep their opinions to themselves, it makes me so angry hearing people who call themselves family behaving like that!
You do what’s best for you and try not to listen to their negativity xxx
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Hi All,
My experience is a bit different.
My partner has 2 children who will get his entire estate. That is no surprise as we both have our own properties and likewise anything of mine would go to my children.
The issue I gave is that almost from the time he was very poorly in the hospice, his boys have excluded me from virtually everything. I found this shocking, disrespectful and beyond hurtful.
We had a wonderful 4 years together and we were very happy. I naively thought the boys were happy with us being together. and I never saw this coming with them!
One son has rewritten history and acted as if I never existed and the other berated me to other family members at the funeral ( I have since discovered).
It has hurt me as o much and my darling partner would be totally surprised and very upset.
My bereavement counsellor felt it wasn’t actually me as a person but what I stood for- having to share their dad ( but it was never like that). They are in their 40s with their own children, so not youngsters.
Sorry it really still upsets me, 6 months on but trying to accept it. I now know that they were probably never genuine at all.
Ok rant over.
Lots of love to all our friends on here. Xx
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So very sorry you have experienced this.
Big hug.
Love Rose xx
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Hi@RoseGarden,
Honestly apart from the agony of losing my partner , the way those kids have behaved is disgusting and makes me feel so sad. I now have no contact with them and feel sure my partner would not have wanted that. Also unable to talk about him with those so close to him is horrible, as so many things we could have shared.
Never been treated like that in my life.
Sorry still ranting. Xx
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