me too - every night x
My angel was in my dream last night, so pleased, but sadly I can’t remember the detail - don’t understand how I could have forgotten what the dream was about but at least I feel so blessed that he came in my dream after having disappeared for so many weeks 
. Thank you so much my love 
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Thank you I still feel angry at times but even though it was the once and a kiss it’s still cheating he doesn’t know why he done it as went to see a medium she told me everything I suspected was true I was in the verge of ending things but realised he was really poorly something was telling me to go see him we spent weekend together nothing sexual just hugs etc came
Home the Monday as eldest
Was
Poorly spoke
To him the wednesday at
Tea
Time by 7 pm he was gone I just knew when police answered his phone 9 pm he was gone xxx
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Yes I feel angry and was only a kiss but still cheating he ended up deleting her from his friends lost and that weekend he DJ I went with him none of them spoke to each other and I was the one he took back home I still love him was just a shock he cheated said she was more so drunk and don’t know why he done it xx I have to forgive him or else I’ll be angry all the time xx
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I am sorry to hear your first anniversary didn’t go to plan but at least you were all together as a family 
. I can totally resonate with you as I used to feel so sad and hollow after being people then coming home to an empty house but these days I feel not as bad approaching the front door so I do hope it will get better for you someday soon.
I am okay thank you for asking, I’ve read an article on a website which makes so much sense; it says embrace ‘solitude and not loneliness’ and I have been practicing ever since and it does help enormously! These days I tell myself he is by my side all the time, though not physically, and somehow I feel much less lonely and am able to get on with things as if we were doing them together, seems like a miracle and I am keeping my fingers crossed it won’t change.
We’ve been dealt with such a bad card, I hope your days have been more up than down…please take care.
Big hugs 
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Embracing solitude not loneliness does seem to work! I have put into practice since having read it on an article on a website, I still feel sad and lonely but far less intense than I used to feel. I am able to focus on day to day things a little better and enjoy my own company a little more even though the sadness is still deep inside but somehow a little less unbearable.
Must remind myself to keep going in this direction in order to take care of my own mental wellbeing 
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I’m pleased that this will help you and others as we all are going through this sad and lonely journey together
Glad to hear you were okay and had some nice time out yesterday - support from family and friends is so important right now.
Yes, I am still on the right track thankfully and hoping and praying that it won’t change anytime soon.
Best wishes x
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At 5 a.m. this morning I woke up and suddenly started to feel so sad I missed him so much so badly I couldn’t stop crying Is this what grief does to you - hits you before you know it?
I went to work and the feeling of sadness consumed me through out the day. My colleagues must have noticed that I went all quiet but I just didn’t have the energy to try and hide or explain so just kept my head down and got on with the job the whole day. On my way home all I could think was I am on my own now so don’t even expect help from anyone, and the best thing to do is to be strong and be self-reliant as much as I possible can, and to my surprise I started to feel better after that thought!
I came home had my (boring) dinner and it was still bright outside so I mowed the lawn had a shower and now sitting in bed writing this!
I must admit though, that self-talk did help enormously! Must do that more… I am hoping tomorrow morning will be better and brighter
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I think our life’s will always e up and down there is no one out there with any sympathy only people going through it know how we feel
I glad you manage to pull yourself though
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No one out there can understand how we feel that’s why this forum is so amazing for us all here to share and support among ourselves
Thank you for your kind words, take care x
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I am sorry to hear you had a bad morning too…and night. It is sadly the norm for us all now… tomorrow is another day like today… and the day after is the same as tomorrow… nothing special… nothing to look forward to anymore.
I know we tend to go back and forth all the time but I think it’s probably normal for now and one day it will hopefully get better - more steps forward than backward finger-crossed
So what did it say about your dream (only if you wouldn’t mind sharing)?
Wow what a revelation! I never knew how dreams could be so meaningful!
Thank you for sharing 
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Stumbled across this perfect pillow case so I bought two; one for the living room and one for the bedroom…sleeping better hugging it every night since…
x
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I meant cushion cover rather than pillow case - brain fog!
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I like them where did you get them from if you dont mind me asking. Xxx
It’s been almost 11 months since Ilost my husband of 50 years. I’ve been coping okay with lots of ups and downs along the way. I recently spent a week staying at my son’s house on the coast and had a restful break. He didn’t mention his Dad once. Today I woke up so lonely. My daughter who lives locally left for a foreign holiday with her husband and my grandsons. I don’t know why but I just felt so lonely today. My dog helps me and knows when I need a hug. I have been Captain of our bowls club for 3 years but decided to step down and give someone else a chance. My heart not in it any more. Noone wants the job, so I feel guilty for letting me club down, but I can’t face another year of the pressure involved without my husband to support me. I know we all have the ups and downs but today just got on top of me. Sorry for going on.
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You go on as much as you need too, last week i had Gras daughter stay she lives in Oxford i live in Hull, she went home on Wednesday I feel so lost, itsbonly nearly 8 weeks for me but the last few days have been awful. All I do is cry and look for answers to stop this unbearable pain. 
the lonilness is cruel. I just want my life back with my darling husband. And i kniw thats bever going to happen. Xxx
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Hi, I can fully understand your situation, its just so hard isnt it. I lost my darling wife of 47 glorious years the day before Christmas 2020. I know there’s no good time to lose someone special, but at Christmas it just seems so much worse. I have 3 supportive children who always try to make things as easy as they can, but nothing interests me anymore , my enthusiasm and energy has deserted me. I too no longer bother with all the razzamataz of decorations,tree etc, just cant see the point anymore. I now have just one very special card that I put up at Christmas…from my darling wife. She wrote it, in a very scrawly shaky hand just 2 days before she passed. It took all the strength she had, but she did it, and that simple card means the absolute world to me, I wouldnt part with it for a Kings ransom. I hope things get a little easier for us all soon, so take care. Mick
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I feel lonely all the time I miss my husband all the time I know I need to go find new friends but me and my husband had each other so didn’t need friends.so it’s very hard for me to mix with people
My family just tell me I got to get on with things and get over it but it’s hard when you’ve been with someone for 45 years
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Omg your family sound so much like mine, i have been told the same ftom mine. They don’t understand how lonely how hard how scary this is for us. Hugs Jo xxx
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