I like them where did you get them from if you dont mind me asking. Xxx
It’s been almost 11 months since Ilost my husband of 50 years. I’ve been coping okay with lots of ups and downs along the way. I recently spent a week staying at my son’s house on the coast and had a restful break. He didn’t mention his Dad once. Today I woke up so lonely. My daughter who lives locally left for a foreign holiday with her husband and my grandsons. I don’t know why but I just felt so lonely today. My dog helps me and knows when I need a hug. I have been Captain of our bowls club for 3 years but decided to step down and give someone else a chance. My heart not in it any more. Noone wants the job, so I feel guilty for letting me club down, but I can’t face another year of the pressure involved without my husband to support me. I know we all have the ups and downs but today just got on top of me. Sorry for going on.
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You go on as much as you need too, last week i had Gras daughter stay she lives in Oxford i live in Hull, she went home on Wednesday I feel so lost, itsbonly nearly 8 weeks for me but the last few days have been awful. All I do is cry and look for answers to stop this unbearable pain. 
the lonilness is cruel. I just want my life back with my darling husband. And i kniw thats bever going to happen. Xxx
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Hi, I can fully understand your situation, its just so hard isnt it. I lost my darling wife of 47 glorious years the day before Christmas 2020. I know there’s no good time to lose someone special, but at Christmas it just seems so much worse. I have 3 supportive children who always try to make things as easy as they can, but nothing interests me anymore , my enthusiasm and energy has deserted me. I too no longer bother with all the razzamataz of decorations,tree etc, just cant see the point anymore. I now have just one very special card that I put up at Christmas…from my darling wife. She wrote it, in a very scrawly shaky hand just 2 days before she passed. It took all the strength she had, but she did it, and that simple card means the absolute world to me, I wouldnt part with it for a Kings ransom. I hope things get a little easier for us all soon, so take care. Mick
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I feel lonely all the time I miss my husband all the time I know I need to go find new friends but me and my husband had each other so didn’t need friends.so it’s very hard for me to mix with people
My family just tell me I got to get on with things and get over it but it’s hard when you’ve been with someone for 45 years
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Omg your family sound so much like mine, i have been told the same ftom mine. They don’t understand how lonely how hard how scary this is for us. Hugs Jo xxx
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Hi, Yes its hard, so hard. I 've been in the same place as you and know your feelings of loss emptiness and isolation only too well.So many Why’s,what ifs and if only’s, too much to get your head round. Will be 4 years at Christmas since I lost my darling wife and soulmate and still miss her every second of the day. I try to stay positive, but usually fail. Wake with good intentions of not wasting another day but I soon slip into my usual routine of moping around and doing nothing I think we all do. I break down just about everyday …makes no difference where I am, if it comes it comes. I’m not embarrassed bursting into tears in the supermarket or in front of neighbours, the more you bottle it up the worse it is I think. I just want you to know that your feelings aren’t odd or not normal, they just show the importance of your loved one and how much your love for them goes on. Take care
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They don’t they have there happy lives to carry on with I’ve never been so lonely in all my live
Sending hugs to you x
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I really thought my fsmily would offer more support but no . I stand here very much alone and omg its so bloody hard . It will be 8 weeks on Sunday for me how long is it for you. Xxx
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When I first read posts from people about friends and family disappearing after a few weeks I was saddened and thought that mine would remain supportive.
How wrong I was. Most have vanished into thin air. Funnily enough, the ones that still occasionally keep in touch are not the ones I expected to. Those I thought would still be around are the ones that don’t bother. Xx
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It’s weird isnt it how fast they disappear, all thecwe are there for you means nothing absolutely nothing. I have been told this is your life and you have to get use to it. They dont realise for one minutebhow lonely this is. Xxx
It’s been 10 months I try to pick myself up and fall back down again it is a very hard road we are on xx
At my husband’s funeral last October 2023 everyone we knew turned out to see him off. Friends from ages ago turned up as well as lifelong friends and of course family. One of those lifelong friends (a couple) did not contact me for months and have finally agreed to meet for lunch next month - a year on from his death. Others just went back to their lives and seem to have forgotten me altogether. It makes me question if they were my friends at all - or my husbands and just put up with me . At least my family have remained by my side throughout, children, grandchildren, brothers, cousins, aunts and uncles. None of my husbands family have kept in touch which is very sad.
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I think that seems very insensitive of your family, having been with your husband for all those years losing them is not something you can get over, I know as I lost my husband of 47 yrs on 1st May 2023 and I cant see myself ever getting over that. Just you take your own time as your family will only know how it really feels if it happens to them in years to come.
At least you have this forum where we all know exactly what your going through as we are all going though it too.
Take care, look after yourself and grieve in your own way xxx
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I got them from Amazon - what don’t we get from Amazon these day!!!
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True great for everything i will have a look xxx
Yip my go too if I need anything, look on Amazon first, and usually get what I need xx
Me and you both i always look there first and usually i find what i am looking for.xxx
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Hi, I really feel your pain and anguish and know how hard anniversaries and special dates are. I lost my darling wife of 47 years just a day before Christmas 2020, so now Christmas holds nothing but sorrow rather than enjoyment. I was fortunate that I was able to retire at 53 and we took to cruising, visiting all 4 corners of the world and always went on a special Christmas/New Year cruise. It was fabulous and we both enjoyed it so much but now I can hardly bear to think of Christmas After our last cruise we’d decided we needed a break from it and planned to get a nice motor home and just take off whenever but sadly that dream never came to fruition. Oh, so many happy memories all tinged with sadness at what might have been. Hope things get easier for you soon. Take care
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Hi @george73 yes, anniversaries, special dates bring back beautiful memories and at the same time deep sadness! We celebrated every anniversary and birthday without fail mostly going away as we both loved travelling - now the thought of spending time on those dates without him gives me so much pain although I’ve tried a couple of times going away alone for both of us, the first time was awful and unbearable and the second time I ended up talking to him throughout from the beginning to the end of the journey - however, surprisingly it helped me to focus on being there thinking that he was next to me just like the way it used to be.
His birthday is coming up next month and I have just booked myself to go away for a few days. I am hoping very much that I will be able to focus on being there by talking to him again - and if it works, that will be the new normal on our anniversaries and special dates forever till the day I join him.
Thank you and I hope the next Christmas will be easier for you, best wishes.
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