Thank you, I had a quiet and peaceful time alone just how I had hoped for. I was a little apprehensive before going but now I’ve come back feeling more confident about travelling alone so hopefully the next time will get even easier! Yes, anniversaries are not easy for us all - I have had to escape on every anniversary since my love passed away last May and most probably will carry on doing so for a long while yet until I can cope being alone on each anniversary 
I do understand where you are coming from as we too always went away together just the two of us everywhere doing everything together and never needed anyone else! Now, I try to carry on doing the same…although by myself, with him on my mind 24/7…I talk to him all the time as if he was by my side…I must say it works for me…it makes me feel loved and comforted and I am quite okay with that.
best wishes,
Thank you for your kind words. I certainly had, yes just like the last time and I am forever grateful to be able to have such precious time with my him by my side again - so loving and comforting…love him and miss him so much 
sending big hug xxx
Big hugs xxx
My daughter and grandson came over today and took me to my mums .i walked back though the door and thought I’m on my own again I miss my husband every minute of the day .its so hard just being here without him sat by me in the evenings I miss every thing about him
Hi Pam, I know just how you feel, I’m the same. I go out sometimes for a couple of hours and for that time I’m “somewhere” else, both physically and mentally but the minute I’m home and close the door the loneliness and sadness hits like a ton weight .I get times when I find it so hard to accept that Val has gone even though I know its true. I just hope for all our sakes that one day we’ll be back together with our loved ones, and then we’ll never part again.
Take care
Hi George73
Sometimes I think he will be here when I come though the door. Then the reality hits that he’s gone and not coming back not to this life but hopefully in the next we will meet again .so we have to hope we can get though each day and the loneliness a sadness .
Sometimes when I come home I go to walk in without using my key because if I was out on my own he would always be there and the door was unlocked and then it hits like a thunderbolt that he’s not here anymore, its just an awful feeling and so upsetting, I just hate coming home to that empty house cause thats what it is now, its no longer a home!
One of the silliest things I have found is not having to adjust the shower setting! Andy always had the water hotter than me so I always had to turn it down. I still can’t get used to not having to do it, my hand always goes to the temperature control…and then I remember 
Sending a big hug xx
I know how you feel, I do miss my husband so terribly and find it hard everyday without him by my side. I tell myself each day that he may not here physically but in my heart and my mind he is always by my side, going everywhere and doing everything with me, just like the way it used to be - the thought helps keep me going day after day
best wishes to all X
I do the same Angel. I can’t bear the thought of him not being here so I talk to him and try and keep him with me every day.
I say goodnight and good morning to him every day, and speak to him throughout the day to tell him things or moan about whats happening in the world, I sometimes feel if my neighbours hear me they will think I have totally lost the plot. But it brings me comfort to think he can hear me and to know I still love and miss him every day, 17 months down this road we are all on and it gets no easier, I miss him terribly and think I always will.
I really miss my husband and 4 years ago today I lost me dad I don’t like October I lost the 2 strongest men in my life in the month of October
My feelings are all o er the place
I’m 13 months into this long journey. I’m hating it. I miss having my husband here to steady me when I wobble, emotionally and physically, and to help me navigate all the red tape since he passed. On the fixed income of pension, I really don’t know how I’m going to manage with all these price hikes . If I didn’t have my children and grandchildren I think I’d be joining my husband, but I can’t bear the thought of upsetting them by leaving voluntarily. This new government are not helping my mental state either!
I told someone today that nothing changed apart from not being able to see him any more but he is still with me by my side so I still talk to him everyday - I could see a strange look on his face! So people don’t really understand what we are going through until it happens to them… 
Big hugs… 
I’m 17 months in and all the beautiful memories of us together make me love him even more now…miss him so much 
This government seems to want to take it from pensioners left right and centre - not sure what we’ve done to them…perhaps, they think we didn’t vote for them and young people did?
best wishes x
They don’t care about us oldies
Just looking after everybody else
This government thinks more of illegal immigrants than of the elderly who have contributed to the country all of their lives!
I can just imagine the words my husband would’ve used for them, he wouldn’t mince his words !
I am currently watching GBN news and their latest stupid idea is to import biomass (whatever that is ) from North Korea & Afghanistan !
We are all doomed !
Family can be so strange. When my darling Val passed away her own sister was coming to the funeral, then a few days before she changed her mind saying " I’ll have a walk up the town and watch the cars leave the funeral directors"…Not quite the same is it. A few weeks later another more distant family member passed …and yes she went to that one. I’ve never heard a word from her since. Oh well not to worry. Take care