I live in Thanet. Moved here 6 years ago when my grandchild was born. I used to live near Sheffield.
South Somerset for me
I felt the same at that point. It will take a while to find moments of okay ness, then a little bit of better than okā¦. It gets a little better. You must love moment to moment for now. It is all your mind and body can handle. Tears will come, the pain is awful, then all the emotions of fear, guilt, stress,
Depression and then numbness and on and on until the waves become a bit less frequent. They still hit and hurt like hell, but not quite as frequent so you have relief inbetween and can adjust slightly more. Hang on in there. There is hope.
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Iām just bruised and sore thank you.
Feel your pain lost my adult son suddenly and my husband recently. Hearbroken and just exusting at the moment. I reminded myself how I tried to cope before. I use to think if my late son was aware of how distressed I was he may not be able to rest in peace. Love seems to deepen for the ones we have lost and maybe we should extend some of that love and comfort (on their behalf to our self) otherwise we will remain tortured abd paralysed. Hope I am not voming over as psttonising - like yourselves I am trying to survive, grt through each day and find some light at tge end of the tunnel x
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Tony4 youāre such an inspiration and youāre wordās certainly give me a bit of hope.
Iām just totally broken and itās so hard to see a future . Weāre all floundering and looking for something that can never happen.
Thanks for telling us that it will get a bit easier xx
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It will. For now just cling to any bit of floating wreckage and allow the waves to come over. Grief is utterly horrific but it sort of tells you what you need to do which is just let it do itās thing. Trust the process and try to keep yourself fed, watered and I find writing my feelings and thoughts down in a journal really really helps. I write letters to him and tell him how Iām feeling. It feels like it is going somewhere then. I texted him too. My best friend has really let me down having been really good at first and I felt very alone and sobbed my heart out last week but I also wrote a list of life lessons that he gave me and thought through what he would have said to me. They are still in our hearts and minds so use all of that to help you. Thereās no escaping it is just an awful awful experience but it does get a little easier.
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hello margaret
@Lizfar can completely identify with how youāre feeling - I lost my Mum April 18th and everything is so raw. Some days I feel like I donāt want to live anymore, but I know itās not what Mum would have wanted. I myself struggle with depression and Iām a mental health nurse - youād think weād be better equipped to go through trauma and grief, but weāre only human after all 
often I feel the more you love someone the harder you grieve. Iām trying new ways to look at Mumās death - like she chose when she went, that her body wasnāt sustainable to life anymore. Grief is rearing itās ugly head in the strangest places, and I want to go through it and do it, but I realise I have no control over it. The best I can do is be kind and gentle with myself. I wish you all the love and pray this time becomes easier for you 
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Thank you. I also write my thoughts and our journey and text John. I feel like Iām clinging onto your words and willing the pain to ease off a little.
Amazing how much sadness and despair that we can endure.
Im sorry so many people are suffering but Iām glad we can talk xx
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Hi, I lost my partner Christine 10 weeks since and have found great comfort in this group, I am trying to rebuild my life the best I can but itās tough and am taking things day by day and sometimes by the hour. I have had to leave our family home due to the house being in probate, all very complex and distressing. Iāve found myself a lovely flat and know Christine is here with me, the place has a lovely aura about it, I was really struggling in our home but I am finding peace here but it canāt replace what I have lost.
I hope you can move forward step by step and you and your son can support each other through these dark times
Bryon
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Hi Roma how are you today?x
Where do you live ? Xx
I have just moved from Accrington to Gt.Harwood
Do you like it there? Wherever you go your wife will always be with you by your side. Xx
So sorry for your loss I feel for you. Keep talking to all of us Iām sure it will help you through these difficult days ahead. Xxx
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Thanks Margaret it was cathartic. Had my 8th counselling session today. Iām so glad that communities like this exist, and we are all here for one another. Iāve become estranged from my sisters since we lost mum and thatās been difficult
I really like it, itās peaceful and I feel Christine here with me, it has a lovely aura about it. I was struggling at home too be honest 
I still miss her so much but this has a different feeling about it, if that makes sense xx
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@Braztash56
I am delighted for you. Lovely to hear something nice. It is most important that you feel Christine with you, as she always will be.
Best wishes xx
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Total sense. Homes always have their own personality. You know what is right as soon as you walk in. A lot needed to be done to our bungalow but we knew it was right as soon as we walked in. New kitchen, bathroom, boiler, double glazing, roof on conservatory, lights, sliding doors.
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