It really does x
Sending love and hugs to all of you. Xx
My appearance has changed so much , Iāve lost weight and Iāve aged overnight. I look in the mirror and I donāt know the person looking back at me.
Yes, I canāt be bothered much with my appearance either. Iām thinking of chucking out my colourful clothes and just wearing black or grey from now on.
Hello, i am so sorry for your loss ,of your son.
I lost my eldest son last August,
I know only that it hurst,sending you much love and hugs .
Xx
Iām so sorry for your loss, I lost my son in August too x
So sorry to hear of your loss. X
Hi, I too lost my eldest son in November. Itās 65 days since he was found.
I just want answers, I know it wonāt change anything but it might help ā¦
Iām angry at the moment and I feel like others are moving on.
I donāt think anyone understands unless theyāve been through it. I feel at times Iāve just been left to get on with it. Itās a living hell. X
Iām so glad someone else thinks theyāve changed appearance, I must admit I donāt even think about what I look like at the moment. I forget to brush my hair and one day I couldnāt remember whether Iād put deodorant on so put more in just in case ! I donāt care about eating or making dinner and canāt think more than 1 day ahead.
Iām trying to keep occupied but my mind just wanders.
Youāre right - we all know, but I think losing a child is just different for the mum, on another level.
Itās just all unbearable. Akhil would have returned back from his travels next week instead Iām arranging his funeral. The ex is demanding all sorts and Iāve had to reason with some things against my will. As I believe karma will do its part to him. My heart actually aches. Iām broken and Iām trying to hold it together for my mum and older son.
Sorry to hear about your son. Xx
I feel for you, itās unbearable, none of us should have to arrange our childās funeral.
You poor thing. Iām so sorry you are having all this extra hassle. X
Morning ladies how are you this morning? I canāt sleep . Did you witness charge at the Crem? Iām deciding whether to or not?
Hi all.
What is charge at the crem?
I thought things would āget easierā after the funeral. And then when they didnāt I thought they might be easier after coronerās report, some guilt was lifted for me but itās still the same. For the rest of my life I will not see my beautiful Lauren. I miss her so much.
Laurenās ex partner who now has custody of youngest granddaughter came round for take away at our invite along with Laurenās eldest child who lives with us now and my son and his partner. I hand incredibly violent thoughts to Laurenās ex partner. How dare he be alive and my daughter not. I know itās irrational and theses bad thoughts will poison me more than harm him.
Witness charge to watch the casket go in the back through to cremate.
I know what you mean my ex husband with all the history and what pain he inflicted on us how is he still here yet my baby isnāt. Not fair.
The crem we used donāt do this as itās done at night time.
Perhaps with time some of these thoughts will lessen.