Not stupid at all. I’m so sorry, I know this feeling well. Be gentle with yourself.
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Not stupid. It’s such a horrible feeling. It’s difficult to control how we feel and we have no control about what’s happened to us.
I often have the same feeling of total loss. It hurts and I feel for you.
Thinking of you and all those with broken hearts.
We are still alive and we have no choice but to carry on knowing we carry this grief with us.
We all understand.
Take care of yourself as best you can.
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I really understand how you feel , I feel exactly the same
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Thanks everyone. So hard but got to get on with life somehow. I am meeting friends later for coffee and really don’t want to go as the normal well meaning words will be said, but they can’t understand. Indeed I hope they don’t go through this ever. Then was going to bereavement support group for the first time, they meet in the library and I don’t want to start crying in such a public place with strangers….
But we are all going through this kind of stuff. Hope you have the best day you can. For those just back at work - well done! I admire your courage in getting through the door
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Hi Whisky im so very sorry for your loss. Unless someone has gone through deep grief as we all have on here they have no idea how awful the whole thing is. I know what you mean about going everywhere together. Me and Gill lived our lives as one, we had such an amazing bond. It was 3 weeks yesterday I lost my Gill and it’s as raw now as it was on the day. Keep posting on here Whisky, there are wonderful people on here who are willing to share, listen and give advice. Its helping me a long the way. So please keep posting, I for one will be here if you need to bend an ear
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Hello
I have had a phone call from cruise today ,they said I have still got several weeks to go before I get my counselling. She also gave me a surpport to ring if a need someone to talk to . She also gave the names of a videos to watch on how to cope with grief . It’s nice to know I haven’t been forgotten . Hope you have been doing ok today
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Cry openly in front of strangers. You don’t have to hide your grief behind closed doors x
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That’s really good that they rang you. Even if you still have to wait a bit longer, at least you know they haven’t forgotten about you. I think that does make a bit of a difference, doesn’t it?
I’m in full-on funeral mode unfortunately and it’s mentally and physically exhausting. Mark’s notice is now on our local paper’s website and people are leaving lovely messages. It’ll be in the printed paper tomorrow and Friday. Although it still feels surreal, this makes it feel more real. I hate it all and just want to hide under the covers.
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Well I made it through the work for today. It wasn’t as bad as I thought, some lovely people just came up and said nice to see you back, we missed you, which was lovely and much appreciated. But the dread of walking back in home to an empty cold house was just horrendous. Ray was always off work for January and would have everything done, house warm etc. The cat looked at me crossly as if to say where the hell have you been all day! Now I’m just having endless cups of tea and catching up here. This forum is such a tonic, great people here who understand the pain of deep grief. Thanks everyone xx
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Getting ready for a funeral isn’t easy , hopefully you have a good funeral director who will take care of most of it . I understand about hiding under covers . I felt like that just before my husband’s funeral.
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Glad your at work went better than you thought it would. It’s nice your colleagues knew the right thing to say to you . Sometimes a hug from people is all you need
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He is amazing. He was the funeral director when my Dad died in 2020, when my Mam died in 2024, and he was with us for the interment of their ashes last year. He, and the gorgeous woman who works in our local branch feel like friends now and it’s such a comfort to me. I am very lucky to have that closeness with them.
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I am so glad you feel like about your funeral director . It will hopefully help you in the process of sorting the funeral out .
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Well my husband had a Dignity funeral…without a service…he was cremated today…we could not attend but my friend took me to the Crematorium. My family live in Blackpool and my husbands family live in South Wales and Singapore so it worked out well and saved them travelling in winter…I feel absolutely empty…I’ve crossed all our holidays out of my diary …nothing to look forward to…my dogs look at me appealingly…Crufts is fast approaching and one of my gorgeous little boys was competing but I just can’t go
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Thank you Eddie
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Morning Peg I was so hoping you would make it through relatively unscathed. People do care which is always nice. Yesterday was my 3rd day back and I handled it better than the previous 2 and even going home though sad I managed. Totally get where you are coming from when you say empty cold house, it’s horrid. Hope your 2nd day today goes ok, please let us know at end of day you got through ok. Take care x
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My pleasure Whisky, please reach out anytime you want a chat.
Im sorry you feel empty, im dreading the funeral for Gill on the 23rd because as far as I can see it’s like oh well that’s it. When is Crufts, is there a chance might feel more unto it by then. It’s a horrible feeling we are all going through, it drains you physically and mentally and just want to see an end to it. Keep chatting Whiskey even if don’t feel really unto it. It has helped me immensely on here x
Don’t know about you but when I first saw Gill in the paper it brought me to tears. We have the celebrant coming today which im not looking forward too either. When did you say Mark’s funeral was? Gill’s bless her not until 23rd
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Good luck to everyone today on here whatever you’re doing. Whether it’s work or home or something else. Knowing we are all here if needed is a big help. Even though it’s 2 weeks away im sat at work putting together a few words I want to say at the funeral about Gill. It makes your mind race all over again and brings everything to the fore once more. All try and have a good day.
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