I’m smiling reading the end of this message, thank you. I think he would be proud. Not just of how much care is being put into his funeral, but of how I’m keeping going and doing my very best every day.
I’m worried that the only way I will get through the day is to try and zone out as much as possible. But I really do want to feel present and to experience it and to be able talk to all the people who loved Mark. It’s just too much to take in though, isn’t it?
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I’m so sorry Peg, I don’t really have anything positive to say…just that I am sorry and will keep you in my thoughts tomorrow. Try to sleep well tonight x
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It really is draining .especially if you asking family so everyone is included…in fact my daughter said to me after i was to chose things for my own funeral because she couldnt go through it again lol x
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Remember we give a damn. We know how hard it is, how lonely. We care. But it is so very hard knowing we can’t see our loved ones again. Hoping you get some rest tonight and tomorrow has some lighter points for you
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We probably all should! x
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My first full day on my own…except for my dogs…tomorrow, I’m dreading it…the weather is terrible ..I know il just want to stay in bed and I’ve jobs to catch up on but I’ve no incentive..I go to bed late fall fast asleep as haven’t slept much the passed four weeks but wake up every hour…I know because I hear the church bell. Il keep checking this forum tomorrow as feel I have company if I come on here. Thankyou all for your support
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I’m so pleased that Cruse have been in touch with you. I start my counselling next week so will see how it goes. Take care and continue reading and posting here where everyone can easily relate and support each other 
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Morning HelRen, it’s so bloody awful. Like you I sat there last night talking to Gills youngest and I couldn’t comprehend how Gill could not be here when others are. These dips or waves I call them are the worst. You think you are coping reasonably well and then you’re not. Please keep posting HelRen we are all here for each other. You have kept me strong so I hope we can do the same back
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Oh Bear that is such a lovely thing to say and I think exactly the same, its helped me no end. Always here to listen, always here to help if can.
Morning Peg, you’re not bringing the tone down at all that’s what we are all here for to be able to speak freely so we can all help. Going through exactly the same, walking back into the house is the worst however out of all the places I want to be strangely I want to be at home. It’s familiar, it’s me and Gill. I promise you Peg I give a dam and will always lend an ear. As ive mentioned on a previous post you all been here for me is helping along this shitty path so thank you x
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Hope you don’t mind I say with the greatest of respect but that last line has made me chuckle, don’t do that much at the moment
Morning Whisky, Hope today goes better than you could imagine just you and the dogs. It’s such a scary prospect the day before thinking about it. I always used to be quite an early riser but after Gill ive stayed in bed as late as I could on a morning because I didn’t want my day to be long. Me and Gill would always lay with a coffee and watch the morning news so I started doing that and strangely it has helped slightly. I as will the others help where we can. What im going through is life altering, heart breaking, saddening but to know others are enduring this torment too is so wrong. So if I can help in any way at all im here. Get through today by whatever means necessary x
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Whisky, hoping today passes by as easily as possible for you. Take care. Best wishes
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Glad i made you chuckle, sometimes we feel we wont ever laugh again..
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Thank hope your counselling goes well next week . Let’s us know how you get on .There is also a bereavement support group at local church . And talking table group on the same day .i am trying to decide which to go to
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I hope your day goes better than you think it might . I am on my own with my 2 dogs which really helps me . Keep posting on here it’s like a life line .
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I always feel guilty when I laugh
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I have tried to stick to a routine y husband and I had . But it is in the evening , we aways used to have our supper and let the dogs out .So I have stuck with it , it’s given me a bit of comfort . I can’t believe it’s 4 months since my husband passed away next week . The probate for my husband estate seems to be taking ages to sort out .I also keep getting mail for my husband and it’s really upsetting me . I have filled in all the correct paperwork to stop it . But the mail is still coming
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Oh Sherbet that must be horrible with the mail and the Probate taking so long. I think I have been relatively lucky in that respect that all we had was mortgage and bank and everything was in joint names. Im still waiting for relevant forms regarding her pension and that’s horrid because it’s still hanging over my head. Do the 4 months seem like they have flown by or is time at a standstill. Only 4 weeks for me next Tuesday yet seems like yesterday. Hope you have a reasonable day and I really help the probate is sorted soon so you don’t have the whirring round your head
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Thank you so much your support is greatly appreciated as is the support of everyone else on here . The 4 months has been a rollercoaster of emotions. I am going swimming soon so hopefully that will help lift my mood . I find I write things on here I can’t tell my family as they would get upset .
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