Johnch and Charm. Thank you so much for your kind words. My Husband didn’t make a will and left shares in a company. His kids think they deserve them all. Its nasty. I have had threats and my step son tried to kick my back gate down as he wants my Husbands electric bike (that i still owe £800 on my credit card for)
I was very close to his kids or so i though but they have said im not family and to change my surname. Xx
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Oh, JaneD, I am so sorry for your loss and your situation with your step children. I hope you can reach a conclusion to this. I will always be here if I can help in any way. Take care, wishing you all the best x
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Unbelievable- you poor darling. As if you haven’t got enough on your plate. I do believe in karma - in whatever form it takes xxx
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Hello to all on this post so awfully sad and hard reading what everybody is going through.Its 11.40 p.m I am sitting here watching a film on tv.I say watching all that is in my head is my hubby and our only child both lost to me now Heartbroken.But also each day I am waiting for that day to end try to get sleep and then tomorrow start another day and then for that one to end.I am getting out going for lunch etc but whatever I am doing my head is filled with my two lovely men.I feel everything is so bloody pointless they were my life.I miss them so much.I cant ever imagine this pain easing.I just feel as though I am in limbo.So exhausting .I know everybody in their grief feels the same but I am glad I am able to post thoughts and feelings on the forum.Family and friends are great but nobody can totally understand the pain unless you have been through it.I try not to say too much dont want to appear too dramatic bore people or bring them down.Unfortunately though I cant stop the tears from falling.Good night god bless to you all.xx
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Oh beautiful Marg, and I am sure you are beautiful. I wish we lived close to each other, we could watch a movie together, or anyway try. I am just eating dinner as I write this, eating alone as I am sure you do. Life is so very different. I went to get our taxes done today, and had to show my sweet husbands death certificate. Well, that did it. Fortunately the lady doing our taxes was so kind. I could see genuine “I’m sorry” in her eyes. We are all walking this dark difficult agonizing path together.
Peace and love. Karen
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Hi Karetired
Yes we are as you say walking this path together
Alone but together with folk here
Boy do we need ‘each other’
Xx
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@Bess1
Sending hugs for the weekend.
Yes, we don’t feel right at any event without our loved ones, no matter what we look like. It is so hard to even contemplate being at them and I know my daughter’s wedding in August is going to be one of my hardest tests. Of course I will be delighted for her as she is very happy with her fiancé but equally will be tearful without her Dad to walk her down the aisle.
Just as well I don’t wear make up!
Thinking of you.
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@Karetired
When you look back it is hard to make sense of everything but your comment about everything you did being out of pure love is oh so true and clear. Keep that thought always and that you will be reunited one day and then for eternity.
Hugs xxx
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@Marg1
Keep posting here and we will be here for you.
Apologies to many though that I wasn’t here much yesterday as I had a flare up of my Fibromyalgia so it wasn’t a great day.
I do hope, Marg, that slowly you will get some peace in your heart and some light in your life. I don’t believe we ever get over this kind of loss but that we can find a different reason to do things and the belief that we can still help keep our loved one’s memory alive in what we do. I try always to do what I believe would make Richard proud. Not that I always succeed and, as I’ve said before, I’m sure he’s sometimes looking down and saying ‘what the heck do you think you’re doing?’
Sending love xxx
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Thank you so much for everybodys kind responses does make a difference to how I feel to know you understand.Karen Fibromyalgia I believe is very painful I have two friends with it and some days they can barely get out of bed.Take care.
Love to all this Saturday xxx
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I have severe arthritis so have had to get sock putter onners and litter pickers and long shoe horns. Robin always helped me with those things. I am totally lost and bereft without him. Coping isn’t always an option for all us.
Once again say unless you have been through you haven’t a clue and that includes people who invigilator sites. Xxx
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Thanks @Marg1 mine isn’t usually too bad these days since going gluten and wheat free but it decided yesterday to play me up. Not so bad today but I’m going to try a quieter weekend if I can. The jobs will still be there next week!
Hugs xxx
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@Charm
Sorry your arthritis is such a problem but fully understand (I’m a physio by profession) hope you can get some relief from it some days.
Hugs (gentle ones)
Karen xxx
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Hi Karen F
Thank you for your reply
I’ve just read all todays posts
Pain etched in every single one……
Life no existence yes
Bugs hugs to all this lonely ‘alone’ Saturday night
Xx
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…that’s exactly how I feel…
Morning
Pancake day Paul loved making the pancakes I did the mix
Paul’s birthday this Thursday
Feel the tension rising
Folks I never asked for this ( and I know none of you did to)
Big hugs
Xx
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Morning @Bess1. Did you manage to get any sleep? All these things throughout the year are going to be horrendous. I’m panicking about the spring coming. We have quite a big garden and David always cut the grass and kept it lovely. I keep looking at the grass getting longer and it breaks my heart that he won’t do it again. His birthday is in April, the same day as our 8 year old granddaughter. He used to call the the Birthday Twins. She was inconsolable when her granddad died. We are worried she will be upset this year but we always have family get togethers for birthdays and we’re hoping being with her cousins will distract her. Lots of love and strength to you. Jean.
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That birthday will be hard for you all I’m sure but yes, children do get distracted easier than adults so fingers crossed when the time comes.
Hugs xxx
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It seems like everything is painful. I hate my life without my precious husband. I see him sitting out back in the yard he loved. Oh this is impossible. Another day without our precious loved ones.
Peace and love, karen
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I totally get that. Everything seems pointless without my husband as we did everything together and had exactly the same taste in everything. All I think is what we did and can’t do again and all the plans we had. I visit him every day at least and get him up to date with everything going on. I stayed with my sister and baby niece for a couple of days and thought constantly about experiencing it all with him as he loved them dearly.I live off toast and cream eggs because I can’t be bothered to cook. Once you could eat off my floors but now I don’t bother.
We looked after each other and now there is just me and I hate it without him.
I can’t change it but neither can I envisage day after day not seeing him and cuddling him. I hate to see other people carrying on as if nothing has happened when to me the world has been torn apart. Xx
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