Five months for me i still cant believe he’s gone i know I’m stupid but still half expect to see him sitting in his usual place when i come home. When of course he isn’t the tears flow i know it’s awful but sometimes i wish i would get an illness so i could join him x
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It’s been 4 months for me, im still hoping its a dream and hes going to walk in and say hey baby.
I miss him everyday and struggling without him, I feel lost and cheated out of my future.
After 22 years half of me is missing and I’m not living anymore just existing.
I can look photos of Hazel and enjoy the memories that photo invokes. It’s when i relate the photo to now and the future.
A photo Hazel in Avenham Park is good. That we’ll never sit together in Avenham will provoke floods of tears
I watched a couple of old videos, which good, but then i heard her voice and that got me upset.
Listening to music can’t be trusted yet, as there are so many on my playlist with links to Hazel.
It’s only 12 weeks today but seems longer. I miss her so much it hurts but for the sake of her memory, i have to go on without her.
I’m going down to Plymouth on Friday and there will be a lot of triggers i suspect
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Its been nine weeks for me, I keep praying its a bad dream, and I will wake up and everything will be okay, the house is so bleak without his laughter, he was always laughing, I just wish I could hear him again. Every morning I wake up and the realisation hits me, another day without my lovely husband.
My love to all of you who are feeling the same xx
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Love to you too xxx
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Someone said it will get better as time goes.no it does not.it is getting worse 6 months i lost my wife …
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Dave your right it’s six months for me too it does get worse because it’s longer since you saw them , heard their voice and felt their love sleep tight xx
Yes i am getting worse i go to bereavement councillor tomorrow m y 3rd one it sort of helping mev x
Going to bed in20 mins or so x
Goodnight, hope tomorrow is a good day for you x
Good morning one and all .looks a nice but nippy .sunshine here
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It’s lovely here, I went outside in the garden and it was actually warm.
After a few minutes out there, I was in tears again, just wish he was here with me, I retired to spend more time with him, and now he’s gone!
Life is horrible sometimes x
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Just got back from my councillor session it was a good one xx
I’m sorry Flints. It hurts keenly, the sunshine at odds with how we feel. I put my face to the sun today while sittinh on a familiar bench in the park and it reminds me of all our wonderful breaks in the spanish sun and plans to get a holiday home there in retirement. At 56 I am just wishing my days away which is a guilt and seering sadness
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Yes so sorry it hurts my councillor helps me a lot today was a very good one.
Hello Pooka
We too were hoping to live in Spain, when Mark retired, it’s so sad that he never got to achieve his dream of living somewhere warm.
We both loved Spain, how can it be that lives can change in an instant, and suddenly the one you love no longer exists in your life.
Sending you my love xx
I’m glad the session went well x
@Flints yes went very well today. She is a very good listener and gives me good advice.she say just look yourself and be kind to yourself.i keep on thinking of all the good times you had. X
I how you feel about wishing the days away. I hate getting up and facing the day alone and love going to sleep knowing its one less day so I can be with him again.
I really don’t want to spend another 30 years without him x
@Poppet1973 i know how you feel i am the same i can not get over her loss.an other 12 years more .with out my maria xxx
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