How are you feeling? I know you will want it over of course, but hope you’re keeping positive.
I’m ok Thank You Mags, I’m wary of the Hickman line. Be glad when that’s taken out. Positive as I can be, I been granted pip and backdated. Got to meet my sister tomorrow to finalize payment for mum’s headstone. Maybe I’m dreaming today a little as I have family in Australia. I not got everything I’ve wanted from life as of yet, I’m still searching. More or less given up on this country!
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Perhaps a trip to Australia could be in order when you are better. It would be lovely to have something like that to aim for. Yes I’m sure you will be glad when the line is out. I’m pleased you’re keeping pretty positive, good for you.
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I know it is hard at the moment but you will get used to the Hickman line. It will feel a bit alien to your body at the moment but it will adjust. Mum didn’t like the idea of having one until she saw how easy it made things
Problem is I might not want to come back. I not found what I want from life. I know if I met someone in another country then it would be next to impossible to return to the UK. But first I need to renew my passport that runs out in March. My biggest fear is becoming a lonely old man. I don’t want that, it goes against everything that I am. But the UK is so full of selfish individuals and a police force that’s out what it can get from situations like this.
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Well it’s there, but still not keen on it. Like I said I be happy when it’s out and obviously I reached my final goal of being in remission.
You are not alone. I lost my mom 5 weeks ago after a year long battle with cancer. It was only me and her right up to the end. I’ve lost both my parents and I have no siblings or children of my own. I get it, everyday is extremely hard right now. It’s really hard to move forward right now.
I have Myeloma Cancer on top of losing mum last August. But my progress is on course and the goal is remission now. Then we see what I want to do, a holiday somewhere is on the cards as I not been anywhere for 4 years if not longer. I have to face up to doing something alone at some stage. Besides my mum went away on her own and would want me to be happy I know that. Mum still with me as I done things to please mum even after her passing.
Since mum I have felt driven to do everything I can. Mum and her sister in Australia were very close and wrote to each other frequently. I would read the letters out for mum. As mum got older the communication stopped. I have taken up that mantle!
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for support
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To please mum, if she looking down it would make her happy.
But my aunty getting older and has health problems too now. So receiving letters takes a while for me to receive them.
I’d send off for your passport now. Ive just dome mine. Filled it in online last Sunday, sent it on Monday and received it back on Friday!!! Some countries won’t accept your passport if it has less than 6 months to run. Photo booths at supermarkets give you a code which will link the digital photo online. I did have to do mine again as the one from Morrisons was terrible, sorry @Malcolm2 ! I got one from Sainsburys which made me look less like 80 years old! If youve got it, you might be more likely to book yourself a holiday later.
I wouldn’t use the photo booth in my store as one of our security guards was caught snogging a customer in it!!! Just looking at it gives me the creeps!!
Yuk! Not nice!
I won’t tell you what they got up to in the community room……
Communing 
I realized something tonight, life does go on. But mum will be with me, I know that now. Was looking at Coyote Ugly bar in Blackpool. I got so many memories there as mum took me. So it wouldn’t be easy but I got a soft spot for the place and probably always will. There’s something just magical about Blackpool this time of the year.
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I was told they were in there, in the dark for 40 minutes, he doesn’t strike as the kind of guy that could do any communing for that length of time. If you know what I mean 
Oh my goodness, doesn’t bear thinking about!
It’s good to revisit the happy memories and places.
How are you doing Keith? Hopefully coping ok with all that’s being thrown at you. Anything doing this weekend? Are you still joining in your groups?
Could be a very busy week in hospital next week. Starting at 8.30 in the morning, as I’m now at the Stem Cell Collection stage. The hospital wants to collect 4 million stem cells from me next week. They only need 2 million but they keep another 2 million in storage in case things fail.
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