I’m doing ok, having a good laugh with my sister and relaxing
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Doing ok tired going to dads grave soon be glad when xmass is over
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I did that on my mum’s birthday and went on Monday to visit mum and nannar. I’m totally alone today just playing music like I do most days. I be glad too Keegsy, I have a family but I dont, a family as distant as mars to earth. I need a miracle to turn my life around. I entered into a prize draw to win a house. Like I said I need a miracle.
Ok thanks. A few teary moments but having a good time. You?
There’s things you can do yourself to turn your life around, you don’t need a miracle. You could look to apply to college?
On my own in the flat with Def Leppard and thinking about life, how can I turn it around. Don’t think I’m going to pay the Council Tax as mum’s money was split between me and my sister and really it’s not enough to waste on a council that squandered the money on a private energy company. If I had the contacts and resources then I would leave my birth city. There’s nothing here for me now mum gone. But Myeloma has other plans for me right now.
Going to college won’t do much for me ! I’m 56 too!
I’ll be 46 when I start uni next year. I was told by Edinburgh uni they like mature students. When I was in college there was a guy in my class in his 60’s.
I’m not! something has to give!
My Christmas video on FB this year was Enter Sandman by Metallica. It felt right and still does. I did Christmas pudding and chocolate log. But Christmas does feel fake! I worked through it last year, I think that was better. Just got tearful over Mrs Doubtfire, losing someone changes you and changes you forever
Maybe they are right maybe we are living in a simulation. Life doesn’t feel real no more, it feels like that Jim Carey film the Truman show but much darker and more faked.
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No comment. My post might get edited again.
I hated this Christmas, back in hospital tomorrow and on the 30yh too.
I found it helpful not thinking about it as being Christmas, just a nice couple of days with my sister sharing nice food and relaxing together. Next Christmas will be different for you, you will be way ahead with your treatment, and starting to pick yourself up again. Have a look at your local college, even if it’s evening classes, it will be a good way for you to meet people, maybe make a friend so you aren’t on your own next Christmas. Even if you volunteer at Maggie’s or somewhere else so you have a reason to leave the flat, a purpose. Maybe there is a homeless shelter near to you when you are better, meet people who have been through hard times, and are alone too
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I was reading about some research that reckoned we were living in a simulation! Bit cruel if it’s true!
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I’m not sure where I stand with the hospital at the moment. I got to go today and on the 27th. I need a reason to have the Stem Cell Transplant and at the moment I’m struggling to find a reason. I know leaving this city where I was born in might help. Don’t have really a reason to stay.
The world is cruel!
Hoping the treatment goes well Keith. Very difficult for you, but keep going.
It’s become a forgone conclusion now weekly injections since June. So yeah another day at the hospital.
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