Still Struggling

We all need help and we need to use everything at our disposal. We look after each other.

Am exhausted and bad anxiety lost aunty xmass eve funeral was Thursday .And my mum taken to hospital on monday could be in for a while so stressed

Sorry to hear that,

Just found out my cinema shutting down due to agreement not being reached with the landlord. Another story of greed! Was suppose to see doctor today, but I think I have COVID has I showed signs last night. So didnā€™t feel up to it. Rung in and doctor rung me, but the hospital would have just sent me home anyway.

A friend alerted me to a singles night happening at the end of the month. They got plenty of woman but no men. Itā€™s tempting, but Iā€™m not in a position for a relationship. But I would like more female friends.

Some hospitals are putting masks in place due to some virus, Iā€™m sure I had covid recently itā€™s taking ages to shake whatever it is off
Gawd itā€™s ages since I heard of singles nights ! Go for it ! Definitely deserve a bit joy in your life and it wonā€™t come to you.
Even better when thereā€™s more women itā€™s a win win !

I messaged them earlier on, I would like to see the ways return. Not a huge fan of todayā€™s world!

They hit their quota since advertising on FB, what quality of man will they attract is another thing altogether. Find out my Cineworld is shutting up in February, Iā€™m a member. My mum loved going there too, itā€™s so sad. They tried to get a reduction in rent as they hit tough times. Cineworld was in a 4 floor building, they took up 2 floors. So with Cineworld going it will effect other businesses around the area. But itā€™s all about the money these days, sad as that may be. Listening to Bryan Ferry Letā€™s Stick Together, what a tune that really is, would love to go back to that time.

Do you have many students living down there ? I know Durham turns everything into student accommodation itā€™s shocking really, Durham doesnā€™t really belong to locals anymore
First time I went to pictures was with my dad to see superman, was full to the brim and a good atmosphere back then.
Suppose itā€™s better to go to a singles night then online itā€™s full of nutters now !

I went to a lot of late 70s films, Grease, Star Wars and all Superman films James Bond too. Nottingham the same, seems students are the new cash cow for cityā€™s. I got a reply message saying they plan to do another one. A friend alerted me to it Still fighting this cold or COVID whatever it is, just stocked up on paracetamol and Ribena. They want me back in hospital Thursday and Friday but if I have COVID ?

Definitely yes tbf students do bring a lot of money into Durham, but suppose you got to get the balance right too
Yeah was great the pictures back then it was a luxury to go there ! Iā€™m not even sure if hospitals are doing Covid tests for app I know they are for admissions.

I got tested recently, I might ring up tomorrow cough doing my head in a little. Took me a week last time to shake covid.

Exactly same itā€™s an annoying tickling cough ! Iā€™ve got one of my mams ventilin what she used to use i kept everything like that, Iā€™m thinking that might help, miss her loads

We all do, I know the feeling, it never goes. awayā€¦ I think what mum would say have you taken pacatamol ? I read stuff on here all the time where I know where they coming from. Thereā€™s people me on here, it kind of does help reading other people are just like me out there.

Yeah your right it does help reading and even telling others itā€™s all normal how they are feeling, itā€™s nice to give some advice back too as well as getting it

I thought about my mumā€™s drawers I not cleared them out properly since mum passed August 23, in fact I not touched them. Mums PJs wonā€™t be easy just thinking brings the tears. A lot of mumā€™s pj s I ordered for her or went to Primark to get so I feel thereā€™s part of me in those pjā€™s. People say it gets easier as time passes Iā€™m not sure. I can be ok some days then I think of something or a memories and the tears come. I saw something about Robins last night on Tik Tok and a message I thought I come from heaven to check if you are ok. That started me off! I now understand 1 of the hardest things in life is losing someone really close.

My mams all around me i made sure to keep the things that she really liked, ive prob got more of her stuff than mine stored away. That gives me comfort though, Iā€™ve some of dadā€™s hair, mams and brothers in a little metal tube on my keys. Ive even got their ashes in my living room, they still exist just in another form now. It doesnā€™t prolong grief holding onto things itā€™s a comfort

I got mumā€™s hair brush with her hair in! I got some coats belonging her. Not many got rid of a lot so I could move my clothes into her wardrobe. My mum still has a big presence in the flat. Itā€™s hard to let go isnā€™t it ?

Yeah definitely I knew I always wanted some hair, something is always better than nothing.
Had second counselling session today itā€™s really tiring always leave with raging headache, but itā€™s a way to heal from all lifeā€™s traumas i suppose !

Yea but everything has to be in moderation. How long are your counseling sessions last ? can you not stagger them or do you have to have them like in a block booking. Raging headaches are no good to you. Itā€™s all messed up counseling should be free and it should be through your GP, that way it could be monitored benefits and the impact on your health. But like you said we live in a mad world, maybe the lucky ones are our parents who escape it ? I thought that, the world is getting more harmful and almost like poison to us. Iā€™m gen x apparently so maybe thatā€™s why I think like I do ?

They every Wednesday usually about an hour lasting, in the long run they will be beneficial, I think the headaches are normal your just going into deep thoughts that you usually just keep stored away so to speak.
My parents would both agree they were the lucky ones, living kinda took its toll especially on mam after losing my dad, she gave up which was really hard because me and my brother still her