Hello @Bellacat,
Thank you for reaching out and for sharing your first message with. I’m so sorry for all the losses you’ve experienced and that your friend is so unwell. It’s not surprising that you’re struggling to process all this grief.
You are not alone. We’ve had quite a few members recently who have sadly experienced a lot of loss. You might want to read some of their threads and maybe connect with them. @ANNE6 talks about her experiences in her thread here: loss of family and friends.
@Elainecb also posted this thread a few days ago: Not sure how I feel
You might also want to take a look at our Online Bereavement Support page where you can find out more about our Online Counselling service, our Grief Coach text support service, and our Grief Guide self-help tools.
I really hope that you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care,
Seaneen