Nightwish what you are feeling is completely normal at this stage. I have just had my partner’s first anniversary this week. He collapsed and died instantly whilst we were on holiday; up to that point he was a fit and healthy man. No amount of cpr or air ambulance assistance could save him. I tortured myself for months wondering if I’d missed something that week. I believe it’s very normal to feel enormous guilt in our situation. And you will be in shock at the moment.
I can’t say it gets better but it’s different. Of course you will grieve every single day but you will learn to deal with that in a way that you can cope.
Keep posting on here. It’s been a lifeline for me this last year. Lovely people who all understand our nightmare situation. Take care x
Good morning all lets hope it is a good day for us all.i have a councillor today .x̌xxx
Thank you. Everyone for your support. I know i am not alone, and i am sorry to Everyone on here. I can safely say i did not know what grief was till i lost Sue. Take care one step on this crap path.
Photographer coming on Friday, I have a few days to get it fixed. I’m not letting a stupid wee shelf beat me.
Good morning how are you doing. I am not bad .xxx
Yes its horrible and I doubt it will change xxx
Good morning
I have lots planned for my day.
I have paid some bills, and already cleaned the top of my kitchen cabinets, which really needed doing.
I am going to clean the bathrooms, cut some wood, hang the washing out, have a walk around the garden, and when I have finished all my chores, I am going to do some painting.
So hopefully I will have followed Peaches do five things every day advice.
Have a good day. xx
Nightwish1 that must have been so traumatic for you, just remember your wife was already gone it was the machines keeping her alive and you will know your wife would not have wanted that, please don’t punish yourself, it is enough to be grieving without feeling that kind of guilt too, we all have thoughts of if we did this or that etc but in your case you really had no choice in that situation. Take care xxx
Thank you Debsie, I have had lovely flowers arrive this morning and lots of birthday wishes on Facebook & messenger and will be seeing family later, also watching my wee man for a couple of hours as mum on late shift and dad will be collecting him at 5 ! We were same never made a big deal of birthdays xxx
Thank you Nigel and enjoy your lunch 
Sounds good i am starting to get fitter walking more. Things like that. Xx. Well i am gonna try xx
Gorgeous, he certainly doesn’t look like a beast, as someone else asked what is his proper name Peaches?
I was happy turning 60 got my bus pass best birthday present 
Hope all goes ok today for you KtG I wish we could all come with you for support, but we will all be thinking of you xxx
Thank you flints at the moment I am treating it like any other day but when family arrive later, well thats a different story xxx
Lets hope we get some nice weather, for a lovely walk. Today is a bit dark and cold here xx
Wow so busy apart from the usual hoovering & dusting I cleaned the microwave, thats my lot for the day !!!
Georgi I agree that was a good present as well, I use mine a lot. Although turning 66 was good as I got my state pension at 66 1/2.
Sounds like you have a nice day ahead of you enjoy, all birthdays are special, enjoy xxxx
I dont blame you! I did the microwave yesterday xx
Thats good Dave as well as getting fitter your getting fresh air too instead of being stuck inside, I like walking too xxx