Being on this forum has helped me last week for the first time in 10 months I felt a little different in myself my cousin and daughter had commented on how I was looking better although I was up and down it felt really nice but this week I feel I’ve slipped back again I so want a bit of normality back in my life I try so hard to move forward love my husband to bits and miss him so much just wish I could stop grieving, I’ve so much I want to do just hate wasting days you just don’t know what’s around the corner take care of yourselves
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Going to doctors later see if I can get some help no sleep or very little sleep since Tina passing negligence to my self not eating properly just falling apart don’t want to be here see if they can assist or something x
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@Martin2 . I really hope the DR is some help to you , I’m sure he will be , it’s awful when you can’t get enough or any sleep . I think it’s a knock on effect , everything seems more magnified. When we are lacking sleep . Maybe write a list before you go , if everything you want to say to him , just incase your emotions take over . I know actually speaking how we feel, does make the tears fall . But I’m sure the DR is used to that . Please let us know how you get on . Sending strength and a hug . X
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Thankyou will write it down now. Let’s hope definitely a broken hart xx
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Ummm docs. Not happy diebetes blood levels two high shoulders dropped spine pinched nerves why I’m always in pain left arm week an useless hospital opponent few days thinking to me self is it worth all this x feeling down as you can tell know tina saying come on your time not up yet I still be here with open arms but not yet babes silly I no crying while I’m texting this it seems the only life I have is talking to you all. 63 almost and ? Sorry
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Martin , such a lot going on with you , hope the DR gave you something to help . Of course you will be feeling down , Grief is bad enough to try and deal with , without any health issues . I understand about is it worth all this . We all have those thoughts . But you must try and get any health issues sorted out . I say , I have given up on life , but life hasn’t given up on me . And what Tina is saying is so right , she will be there with open arms when it’s your time . But it’s not up to us . Hey . I have said plenty of times this site is my lifeline, everyone on here does understand , its /we are here to help each other . No need to ever say sorry , and thank you for letting me know . Message anytime X
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Thankyou for listening x just me I guess I no we all on he to support right now I’m trying so so hard to survive xx
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Hi Broken222 such lovely warm words makes me even feel better just reading your post and its true this forum is a lifeline for everyone going through the loss of a loved one thank you
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Yes Martin , you are trying so hard just to survive , you reaching out on here is a good step . X
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Thank you for your kind words . I feel mostly I’m all doom and gloom on this site . But if I can help anyone I will try . We all need each other x
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Thankyou x lost an hurt like us all feel I can hit the bottle will not solve the problem but may ease the pain
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I tried that a couple of times , and I don’t drink haven’t for years . It eased the pain a little , only because I ended up with a headache . !! x
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i i no thanks for listening xx
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Were lucky my son built my husband and I a bar at the bottom of the garden it’s amazing and after losing my husband in May last year spent a bit of time in it I do like a drink but moderate but this was regular till I had to go for a annual blood test and the doctor rang to see if I had a drink problem that scared me now I’m back to moderate you take care
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Martin2 i can sympathise with you on the diabetes as my blood sugars are all over the place.also been told that I need more surgery on my right knee twisting over and as its on my amputated limb.my gorgeous beautiful late wife sue made promise that I wouldn’t give up and she will be there with open arms .no your not being silly crying while texting this .no need to apologise for it
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@Martin2 i told the dr I wasn’t sleeping and she put me on mitazapine. Wow I sleep about 10 hours now
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How’s everyone doing , weekend again , I have been up since 5 cleaned the cooker , might try the garden again . Just trying to fill the hours . Weekend use to be so busy , they went in a flash , now they seem to drag on forever. All xtake carex
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Just the usual, at least the new usual! Sainsbury’s shop for one, housework, but at least the rugby is on this afternoon 
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I’m waiting for my shopping delivered, I don’t drive , I never found the need to drive , my hubby would take me anywhere I wanted . Hope you enjoy the rugby . I will watch football this afternoon , but probably get beat . x
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Go an do my weekly in a bit rainy here so not a lot will get done
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