I know the struggle begins again doesnt it … beaitiful in yorkshire today and do i feel happy … no … :;( xx
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How you doing Martin . It’s bright and sunny here but freezing. So my garden might have to wait . It’s funny my garden tiny ,really tiny but to me it seems huge , cause I don’t like gardening . X
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Deb , I know you say you want to find happiness, but do you actually know what will make you happy .I’m only asking because I don’t have a clue what will ever make me feel happy . X
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Probably companionship tbh … i would like to meet someone but dunno if it will happen ? … i told my husband when my darling was very poorly - what am i gonna do without u … he said you will meet someone … oh yeh that easy isnt it and i didnt wanna just meet someone i wanted him … i loved him ;( not anybody else … but i had to let him go didnt i , what else could i do ? Sad today … xx
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Deb , that has brought tears to my eyes. We never had the TALK . I never expected him to die . Even though his cancer had spread . I don’t know if I could ever be with another man . I did use to talk to someone on this site almost every night , only as friends nothing else . But he got poorly and it stopped . I’m sure you will find a companion , but I think it might take time , you will always love your husband whatever happens . X
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Hi everyone today is a lovely sunny day but cold I’m off to a party with my son and daughter in law then sleeping over at their house wasn’t really sure about going but it’s better than sat here all day crying and I can get away from the quiet and lonely house makeup on always asked my husband what he thought when I was going out he’d say not bad for a old woman so asked his photo what he thought could hear his words in my mind not bad for an old woman, just wished he’d been here if he was he’d have been with me take care all
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I’m sure you do look good , hope you enjoy yourself as much as you can . X
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Weekends going shopping. Clean house just trying not to over think here Portsmouth cold wet garden can wait hope all of us has sort of good weekend Thankyou for checking up on me
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Broken222 thank you so much for your kind words 
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Lol … that made me laugh when you said that … when i used to ask my husband if i looked ok he used to say - you’ll do for me … have a lovely party xx
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Has it … yeh ot was just that lottle talk but its easier said than done isnt it ? And urh he will always have a special place in my heart i know that … i loved him so much and its such a wrench isnt it 
i have a male friend i talk to who walks his dog when i do but i dunno if we are just friends and thats all it is really … it will take time i know that to find someone, i know, if i do ? … you cant just magic it up can you … my husband made it sound so simple … oh yeh course it is !! Bless him … he also used to say i will be ok and im really not ok … its bloody hardest thing i had to go.through in all my life xx
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Debs5 thank you will do you take great care
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After my husband died , I thought it would of been better if it had been me . He was a much better person than me , and I thought he would of found a way to live a happy life without me . Im not so sure now . Seeing how hard this is for men and women . Hardest thing I have ever done and will ever do , but I keep putting one foot in front of the other and hopefully will find some peace for myself x
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Yeh we have to keep trying , they would want us to. My husband had struggled with his health for 10 years and so it was all against him but still doesnt help us missing them does it … i gave everything up to look after him - i devoted my life to him really … but those were our vows … in sickness and in health … thats how i see it anyway xx
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I lost my wife in October and like you found valentine day very hard I took a rose to the crematorium where there is a plaque in her memory spent most of the time crying my eyes out but I found it helpful to just sit on my own with my memories. 2 weeks on and I’m trying to get on with life but still struggling when I’m on my own but it’s getting slightly easier when I think back to October when I lost my sole mate I cried most evening once everyone had left to go to their own home which are the worst times for everyone of us who have lost partners.
I know that in my heart she will always be part of me and when she died she also took a part of mine but we must in our own time except that life will never be the same again but we can move on and live again I’m not there yet but in time I think I will be able to live the life my wife would want me to sending hugs to everyone of us who have lost their sole mates
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Hi @Digger1
Sending you strength and hugs to help you through the days.
It is nearly 9 months for me since my husband passed and each day is now different. I miss him every day and akwats will but now learning to live in my own has challenges.
Memories happy times keep me going and yes i cry too .
Take care
Lynne
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Yeh i been crying quite a bit last few days … i been brave all week and have crumbled yesterday and today . Take care all of you x
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So very true
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I find every day very hard the loneliness is really hard I can go days on my own I look for him where ever I go
we were always together. I hate doing everything on my own .I do hope it gets easier with time
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