I’m totally with you on that, it’s 7 months for me and I just feel I’m going backwards most of the time. I don’t know how to live this life now……he was my soul mate.
I’m very lucky to have a good amount of great friends around me but sometimes I just don’t want to be around them, or anyone. He would hate me to be like this, he was such a positive person and loved me beyond words, but this is why it’s so hard losing him. I feel like there’s no point to anything anymore.
I know I have to carry on, I just hope that at some point in the future I can find a reason again 
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Feeling the same 8 months on. It’s getting worse as reality sets in. Time has to change things but when and how. I too have good friends but I so hate all the alone time in between- sometimes whole days not seeing a soul. It. Is so cruel isn’t it -makes you question the meaning of life! Xx
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@Jazpur so sorry you also feel like this, it is so cruel, it does make you question lots of things. The saying “better to have loved and lost than never have loved at all” I actually hate ! I think it’s actually a really cruel saying as this pain from loving someone so much is worse than any other pain I can imagine or have experienced. How is that better ?
Big hugs x
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Hi ripley
I totally agree with you about the pain
Didn’t know what a broken heart felt like…… till now
Xx
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I am in Cheltenham
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Me too Mark - perhaps have a chat sometime? I’m afraid I don’t drive.
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I know its enough to stop you from wanting to love anyone like that again … i hate that saying too ! Its stupid ! Luckily nobody said that to me or i would whack them ! Lol … Its so stressful all this isnt it … takes a toll on your health one way or another ! xx
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Hi I’m in Warden Hill, where abouts are you?
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Hi Mark, I’m in Kings Road,
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Just to complete the day. I was getting myself a glass of wine and dropped the glass which smashed on the tiled kitchen floor. Normally would call on neighbours to help but none around this evening. I think I have got it all but not easy with my mobility issues. Suppose it could have been worse. I could have dropped the wine.
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Oh dear Pudding, so sorry. Make sure you have any shards of glass removed, they can be difficult to see.
xx
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I think I’ve got them all. I swept up the big bits then went over with the hoover on boost. Mind you the soles of my feet are tougher than leather but I think I will make sure i am shod when I go in there for while. Of course it was my cleaner’s day today.
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Have you heard of the Sue Ryder Grief Space in the John Lewis cafe on a Wednesday morning between 9-11? I have been going for 3 weeks now and people are very friendly, that might be a good place to meet up. If that doesn’t suit then I’m open to suggestions.
I’m Marion by the way, not mark, that was just a suggested user name.
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Today fulfilled one of my husbands final wishes. Whilst he could still communicate he made me promise to send chocolates to all our neighbours for the support and help they gave us in his short illness. I have just got around to it and it has made me all teary again. Now only thing left of his wishes is to courier his watch to my nephew.
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Does anyone know off any greif groups in the wallasey area thanks Tracey x
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@Pudding. That’s a lovely gesture, I’m sure they really appreciate it. I wouldn’t do anything about your husband’s watch until you are ready.
xx
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I am just glad I found it. It was buried in the bottom of a dish. I only found it last week. It was really upsetting me that I didn’t know where it was. I had looked in every drawer and cupboard. Found it when I was weighing myself. The dish is in top of a chest of drawers by the scales. I noticed a flash of watch strap in the bottom of the dish and voila there it was
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Great, that’s another worry solved. They say we find things when we are not looking for them.
xx
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And now I find myself howling again. It just seems to wash over me with no warning
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