I also hate weekend. It’s the silence and the lonliness. It’s deafening and the days feel twice as long. The weather is cold and horrible and makes me feel even sadder. I see people walking about getting on with their lives and I want to scream stop don’t you realise my soulmate has gone. How can they just carry on and my world has been blown apart in a moment. X
Hi all.
So I’ve just had the weekend from hell. As if weekends are not bad enough, I think I have Covid. Lateral flow tests have been negative but it seems strange to me that I made a rare trip to the shopping centre on Tuesday and by Wednesday evening found I had lost my sense of taste and smell and it has not returned. Have spent the entire weekend on the sofa with a hot water bottle and throw, no energy to do anything. Even fixing something to eat seems pointless when you can’t taste anything, you may as well eat a bowl of sawdust. Feeling so lonely and frustrated as I don’t know for sure if I’m positive as the tests say negative but I can’t take the chance of seeing anyone just in case. Miserable awful weather, gloomy and depressing and have been feeling really sorry for myself. Sorry all! Just had to vent! Missing my Beloved husband so much and have cried a lot the last couple of days. So glad this wretched weekend is over.
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Hope your feeling a bit better is awfull when your not well without our lovely husbands being here a had shingles a few was ago so take care lv annie x
Hope you feeling better this morning Annie. I’m an anxious wreck. I’m crying and scared and don’t know why. I took Smudge for a walk and we nearly blew away. I just can’t seem to cope with anything any more. X
Sorry you are feeling unwell. It’s quite daunting when you are on your own. I’ve just returned from walking the dog, it’s very cold and windy thanks to storm Franklin. Take care and I hope you feel better soon xx
It’s horrible nel when your on your own just need a cuddle tell you everything okay john was my backbone always there as your husband was lv hugs annie x x
Thanks everyone for your well wishes and Annie I hope you’re feeling much better now. These storms just make everything worse. If the weather was decent and one could sit outside, listen to the birds singing, get some fresh air it would be a different story. A glimpse of sunshine and blue skies and you instantly feel better psychologically. But no chance of that here, its just cold, dark and miserable. On these kind of days my Hubble and I would hunker down and binge watch something on Netflix and just shut the world out, and that was fine, but when you’re alone during these miserable days it’s absolute hell. I strongly suspect I suffer from that seasonal Affective Disorder too so I dread winter anyway, but when he was here with me I could cope. Just wonder how much more I can take. Take care of yourselves everyone.
Totally agree that this horrible weather does affect your mood. I didn’t find January quite as bad as I was expecting as the weather was settled and we hardly had any rain. Managed to get out for a walk every day and it does help a bit but February has just been the opposite with these storms. Roll on spring and hope it brings us all a bit positivity going forward because we certainly need it xx
We need it barbra I’m fed up up trying to be positive lv annie x x
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Hi Sakinah?
Why don’t you get a PCR?
You can still get one as long as you have symptoms and loss of taste or smell are on that list.
Cheryl
Hi Cheryl. I’m awaiting one in the post. Should be here tomorrow.
Oh that’s good. Fingers crossed 
Yep fear so, but I hopefully am doing my best to trust in God the future shall still bring his plans for my life with joy & happiness. Pray same for you &;All xxx
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Look up if any local eg hospices do groups or other organisations, also AGE UK wirk with 50 plus, they can do befriending & help with small tasks, so can I think it was called Go gym, they run to you stay for whatever arranged & run back x unfortunately most at group I attend are older than me & talk about holidays ( alot !!!), & is quite clicky!!I find it hard to talk to anyone about my scenario but long to, people don’t ask me it’s more me asking!! I’d poss get more out of befriending others as I’m extremely empathic. Think about that too as an idea x
When it comes let it flow. Hard to understand mine, feel guilty getting on with sorting our house sorting husband’s things etc people try to get me to rest , be still, be me… etc, I never stop, go walks, started running etc when I do cry, doesn’t come as often as I’d like, it can be strangulating, !! Lumps in throat etc 
I find the NHS 24 hour phone line amazing 
I lost my wife Frances end may. The initial shock I think has passed but every moment of the day things start me crying. The weekends are the worst days Saturdays are reasonable but Sundays are absolutely lonely my son and daughter both have their families and would invite me to join them. I do go but feel so out of place without Frances. The glue of the family has gone. I have never been a social person.
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Try going church on a Sunday, might help , welcoming social empathy x
Yeah right summers here 
i still walk everyday need to physically & emotionally. Thurs frud sat nights suck, folk out for drinks or home having takeaways cudfled up watching film.
I try but as I posyed, cant see how to start conversation again wknds suck
I have no idea how this thing works. It asked to post happy photos but couldn’t see how. Look at any posts ive had up but doesnt show any responses … cant see how tonpostthis so may turn upb10 tines sorry
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