@StarGate you’ve said every word that we all feel.
We will never be whole again.
Much love
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@Scarl34 . You have come this far Scarl, you have done so well it’s devastating to loose our best mate and partner. Keep going keep posting here, love to you and your family x
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@Kathy6 i just don’t know how much more i can do… i wish i could just curl up and hide away from everything and everyone 
love you you xx
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@Scarl34 . Do you have a plan for Christmas Day? It will fly past and it will soon be over, then have a duvet day or lazy few days at home, you can do it, you are amazing x
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@StarGate Im so sorry fir your loss too.
its a pain no one can describe
im here for you too if you want to chat anytime, at least we can understand what we are going through.
sending yo a big hug 
xx
Morning everyone its 8month since i lost my partner after 17 month suffering with lung cancer .I feel all your pain and its the most traumatic journey to go.on and its feels relentless every day is such a struggle ,its worse when your family isnt near by .Its a lonley existence so always here for a chat and support to all of you xxx
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@Kathy6 no just get up, watch kids open their presents, my mum is coming down to stay xmas eve/day so we will do dinner together and then just try get through the day…
i just feel like im absolutely broken… just had a painter here to touch up abit of work as there was jobs needed when we moved in, and we were chatting and i could feel it coming him asking about a partner/husband…
how i got through the time he was here is beyond!! i feel absolutely floored and just want to hide away forever xx
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So sorry how you are feeling. We all feel exactly the same. When does it end. Had a hospital appointment Tuesday. It was a late one and i dont drive in the dark so got a taxi there…came out and tried to get a taxi back but non available. Had to phone my son and it took him over an hour to get me in dreadful weather. Any other time my husband would have taken me. It was the same hospital where it all happened 8 months ago. It was just like yesterday. Last night i was shattered so had an early night. Woke up about 2am soaking wet. Hot water bottle had burst and mattress soaked . Once more coping with it alone. Friends don’t bother any more. So it’s a case of going it alone. One day we’ll all feel stronger. Hope so . Take care x
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I am sorry that you are both feeling so awful. I hope we find some comfort and relief. I think we could all do with it.
Best wishes to you. xx
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@Jay15 So sorry that you had a bad day yesterday. It sounds horrendous. It never rains but pours when you don’t need it doesn’t it? I do feel for you and yes, I hope we will all feel stronger one day (don’t know when). Thinking of you. Take care. Sending you love and hugs. xx
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Thanks for that. Yes it seems nothing is straightforward at the moment. Everything i touch seems to go wrong. We’ve got to get there one day and hopefully going stronger. through this nightmare a lot stronger. No life will never be the same again just having to adjust to a different way. (Easier said than done) take care. X
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Why do these things go wrong when we are on our own. I left bathroom tap on all night, dread the bill. Dropped a whole mug of cocoa over floor it went everywhere and added to my stress. Cat can go missing and causes anxiety. Need Tony back to lean on and look after me. 11 weeks since i lost him and dont feel secure anymore. Christmas is making me sad even though im opting outof it this year and i have a birthday next week - first without Tony for 54 years. Hope we all feel stronger sometime, but it can never be the same and that thought makes me so so sad. Take care.
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@Debbiea Hi, I had my birthday last week and was dreading it, I did buy myself a lovely little gift which will remind me of my first birthday without my love and best friend. It went as well as it could have done with help from friends and family, it wasn’t so bad. I will always miss my man, it’s been about 11 long long weeks for me since I lost him.
I wish you well and hope you manage to get through your special day somehow, sending best wishes to you x
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@Scarl34 . it’s really upsetting telling people isn’t it, just saying the words makes it more real, I can’t take sympathy either. Sending hugs, please be gentle with yourself x
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54 yrs for me too. Husband’s birthday January and also wedding anniversary. I can understand you leaving the tap on all night. I go into a room and think what did i want in here. Took the dog out and late at night looking for door keys. I’d left the door unlocked and keys left on the outside of the front door all day. I just give up. I’ve had a few Christmas cards but can’t put them up. Will give it a miss this year. Im not usually such a misery but everything is such an effort at the moment. The only person i speak to is my dog and he’s deaf. Hope things change next year for the better. Take care. X
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Thank you.
sending love and a big hug back to you 
@Scarl34 . hi, I hope you have an ok weekend, thinking of you, I think because we both started thing sad journey at about the same time, I know how you must be feeling. Take care, hugs x
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