Morning mom
The children are making soup today with the veg we got from the co-op I think they will enjoy chopping and peeling. Love you xxx
Dear me, please forgive that I never gave you time to process the shock of the loss, and I rushed you to recover. I apologise that I forced you to paint a fake smile on your face and pretend to the world that all is well. Whilst your heart was silently breaking. I’m sorry that when your pulse was pounding, and your body shaking. I made you return to life, as I brought into the lie that I should appear like I was moving on, and my wounds were healed. I hate that this resulted in you needing to hide in a public toilet weep in your car, and have panic attacks attack in shops… you need time and I robbed you of that. I understand and regret that by me insisting you fake happiness, you wept endless tears in the shower, and those around you were unaware that you needed someone to dry your eyes. Your loss, your pain, your heart cries. All of it deserves to be heard. I am truly sorry.
Hi, mom sorry I haven’t felt myself the last few days and my colleagues think I should be getting over this now but I found myself in a shaky place this morning. I miss our chats on a friday. Putting the world to rights and dinner. I could really do with a hug right now mom xxx
Hi, mom,
it’s the weekend and I just don’t know what to do with myself. I can’t believe I asked the boss for a hug yesterday what am I doing… but it was good I needed a hug I miss them so much and it got me through my day I went to the shop today with my daughter so that was good no panic attacks. It was full of valentines things though . Not looking forward to the next few weeks valentine’s day my 50th birthday and morhers day think thats why im so down wish you could be here to celebrate wirh us xxxlove you momalways and forever xxx
Hi mom just got back taken Emily to London i had a chat with my partner about how he’s made me feel the last Cople of days then I told him I’m on antidepressants and see a councilors he didn’t day much but it’s out in the open now let’s see if he helps or is it going to be about him . Love you very much 
Hi mom
It’s just another day I’ve got this it’s parent’s evening I am so angry and jealous sounds stupid but I am I would do anything to hug my mom right now and tell her I love her and thank her for making me the person I am today. I can do this Ive got this I love my job and I love the children I work with xxx love you mom xxx
Hi mom
made it just want to curl up on the sofa in my pj’s I did it one down one to go. Got such a headache. I’m proud I did it told you I’ve got this. Just so tired love you mom xxx
Morning mom
Feeling a bit rough today got sore throat and a headache can’t believe I’m ill again. 
love you mom xxx
Really need a hug right now …
Hi mom
Made it through parent’s evening now just my birthday and mothers day to get through I miss you so much love you xxx off to work now.
Well its the last day of term made it time to put up my feet and relax and get rid of all these germs the little children have left me with then Ive got to find things to do in the week off as I would have been spending that time with you. Miss you mom xxx
Hi mom
A very quiet day today with some lemsip and vic for my cold.
Hi mom
it’s half term now book to take the caravan away for a few days thought it was going to be rest full but the car widow has broken and won’t come back up the intera light wonts go off so my partner is in a right mood and it’s my fault as I should not have put the window down…
Hi mom
Cosy in my caravan just sitting here doing nothing
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That sounds lovely,enjoy.
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Well its been a week and Ive been off the grid cant say it was great fun but Im feeling a little better ( cold ) feeling nervous going back to work but now I know I can do it dont let my nerves take over love you mom xxx
Hi Lolla49
What a lovely way to spend half term. Sounds wonderful I used to have a caravan when I first started teaching and every Thursday evening we would get it ready to go away the next day after school finished.We would explore so many lovely places.
Deborah x
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Thats what we are hoping to do but its not quite working out like that at the moment. Life just keeps getting in the way xxx
Hi mom
Well back to work with children. I don’t know what to say don’t know how Im feeling other than anxious my hand are shaking my heart is pounding hands are sweaty and my legs feel like jelly but Im ok just another day at work it was fine before we broke up nothing s changed Ive got this.xxx love you mom
Hi mom
No Counciling today so I had to cope knowing it will happen tomorrow so Ill have to do it all over again tomorrow then I’ve got a lesson obb then we have a staff meeting and to top it off it’s my 50th birthday and I just don’t know how to have it without you mom